InsaneMorbidKittie

Im used to waking up every morning with a frown on my face. N for the past while, it hasn't been there to greet me and tell me my day is going to be slow paced, with many a drama filled obstacles, and stress soaked clothing to keep me company all day and night. My semi-god, as it shines in the light and releases the precious red that consumes part of my body, is no longer, my semi-god. Captain M has set sail, drifting further away from my system. He used to stay every night, he no longer needs to keep me company, and try to comfort the worst of emotions at 4 am, lingering into the morning glow of 8 am. A Tiny faltering heart beat, and an almo

oh oh they took it from me so long ago. Heart, broken, stone cold. Feelings aren't my own. Directed by the flash backs The pain No gain Restrain, to hurt. Good vibrations ain't in store for me. The confusion, its understood now, oh but why, why me. Didn't think it was feasible. Meaningless, I'm meaningless, used, abused. Is that all i have to fall back onto? Used to this guilt. Trip, trip again. Stumble down hard. Wanna rise But looking up into the sky, the sun just blinds Lost, cant be found. I feel a loss of myself... Stolen, taken. Who am i really? Selfish useless whore. Wanna see the sun shine without leavin me blind

I stand there naked in front of the mirror And see the things so many have took from me. I don't see what some see. I'm stringing myself along this empty road. My lil Grey cloud, he follows me always Someone there? Just the rain...turns into an ocean and i slowly drown, the few eyes that want to save me Wont wander into that on coming monsoon. My body, my heart, my mind...tainted. Scars, tell me I'm no good, tell me what I've always heard. Remind me i can TRY to feel something better But that island....doesn't exist when i cant swim... And in that vast space that is the ocean... Its calm at times, but predators linger below...

Listen The sound waves pushing through, pulling you into the circle of awe. Bliss what is it to you Tied to the pulsating drum beats. Fluttering lights Transcending nights Escaped through the deep woods. Fallen leaves below my feet crunch in sync to my faltering heart beat. sway to and fro sway. The night filling the sky with vibrant echos of natures music, rippling through the air, into our lungs as we breathe deeply and prance about the forests midnight choir.

They think they know you, you feel transparent at times. But what they see, are just splashes and brush strokes on the canvas, its fabricated, explaining only confusion and what words cant express. They can't see the real things, they think they understand, but they don't know, they cant read the important things, they only go so deep, they want to know more, then look at more than the surface... The on going battle in your mind, never leaving you, adding to the stress filled clouds lingering always over top of your head. The days when the confusion bubble is close to popping, only ends up getting bigger. Your head, clamped tightly within y